oh, what a week! oh and what a week this week will be! ugh! not even looking forward to it. only bits and pieces of it.
my mom and i are done. i stood up for myself which is really hard for me to do...but i did it! yaaaaa! it just sucks it had to cost me a relationship...maybe one day she will be the adult and mother i need.

i wish i could wake up tomorrow and trust everyone and know their intentions are pure. but i know life isnt like that and i have been lied to way too many times for me to be so easy going abou that. i believe trust should be earned not just expected-which i feel some people expect. i want to find someone or have someone in my life step up and show me what it is to have someone honest in my life and who by action shows me what i am really worth and that i deserve honesty.

i know i mention this all the time but it annoys me so much..girls! stop parading yourselves as whores! maybe my words arent ice but im so tired of seeing girls in thongs or bras taking self portraits in front of mirrors..what kind of attention do you want? ya guys eyes will turn because they are visual BUT wheres the respect. R-E-S-P-E-C-T!

this video puts a smile on my face! it will be on the list of youtube videos i watch when i get sad.



i like second chances, i believe everyone should get them...and i think everyone should appreciate it.

church tonight was rough. anytime hearing the story of christ crucifixation always breaks my heart...what a thing to go through!


i am fully aware when i write i have the tendency to leave out words because my brain is faster than my typing but tonight im tooooo lazy to proof read.