the grass ISN'T greener on the other side...

i still have no car and that is so awesome....not.
im thankful for the friends who are really there for me, giving me rides, making me go out and hang out, the ones who just want to be around me and listen.
its easy to separate the people who say they are my friends versus the ones who are my friends.
God really has humbled me, especially this week..He is showing me my strengths and my weaknesses.
life isnt easy for me and im definitely not one to give up when things get hard giving me more perseverance than anyone else i know. not to sound conceited but its true. i see so many people who have hurdles and just give up...and not just continue and make it work. people, life is hard but you cant just give up and take the easy route for everything! (this pertains to no one in particular, but rather for a group of people i have seen this occur with-so were clear.)
anything in life whether its school, family, relationships, work, etc... the more you work to overcome struggles the more its worth it. you gain insight, strength and overall appreciation for it. dont give up on anything.
i am constantly being surrounded by people either at home,school and church...that im seeing what i want and what i definitely dont want. this past week i have seen some messy and some beautiful things.... life is messy and life is beautiful. im happy for that. everything isnt supposed to be happy all the time...its ok for it to be messy at times.
never ever in my life would i have thought id be pursued or even appeal to people. although right now im not interested because id like to work something else out, it is definitely flattering. i am trying to so hard to not think the worse right now but its hard. its hard to interpret peoples intentions and know they are good (their intentions). its hard to not compare, not to assume and not think i am being made a fool of. simply put i am concerned if whether if you are waiting for something better to come along and see if the grass is truly greener on the other side. its hard not to think that maybe im no longer appealing to him mentally and physically and that he is out looking for that. but i have a few people remind me daily that i am really a great catch...im faithful, loving, unconditional, sweet, caring...(im going to stop building myself up here) but you get the point. i am not a temporary person.i know deep down if he cant see it now he WILL regret it later. i know this to be true. the grass isnt greener on the other side....dont take me for granted..ever.

well thats all i will really convey on here everything else is too personal to post.